Big Johnson

Monday, May 17, 2004

I'm so excited....

...and I just can't hide it...

Guess what? I've got a job! Woo Hoo! It may not sound all that exciting, but hey, I'll be bringin' in the dough...=P I went to the Gathering today (a small town cafe in... a small town!) to put in an application and the boss (Mrs. Sauborin) went ahead and interviewed me. I'll be working for now, from 5-9pm. I start training as hostess this Thursday.

Hank's graduating in 4 days....=( And uh, I may not get to go... b/c I'll be working, but I think I am gonna go in tomorrow and ask if I could leave a little early to make it to graduation. It starts at 8... I guess I'll just pray and see what happens.

That's it for now I reckon.

Posted at 6:22 pm by jjennifer0705
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Thursday, May 13, 2004

6 more days!

Six short more days and I'll be out of school! Six more days and I'll be a senior. Six more days and I'll be able to sleep in again. Six more days and I have to start lookin' for a job. Six more days to spend as much time as a I can with Hank... *sniff* He's leavin' me...! Grr... Seniors suck!

I'm gonna miss him so much.

I put our prom picture on the side section over thurr...lol... it's kinda funny looking because it's all shrunked... (yeah, I said shrunked, get over it!). I'm suprised they turned out as good as they did.

I used to like the last week or so of school, but this year I'm really beginning to hate it! Not just with each day passing do I think about the fact I'm gonna be lonely all next year as I'm walking through the halls, but these stupid final exams I'm studying for is just rediculous! I have to know about 120 vocabulary words (most of which I've never heard of) for English. I have to know 100 or so different facts for American History. I have to know 30 different things for Physical Science. I still don't have a study guide for Geometry or Business Software... so there's no tellin' what else I gotta know. Although I must show my appreciation to Hank because, uh... well he's *cough* making me a cheat sheet *cough* (no one heard that) for the words I don't know for English... So, it ain't that bad. It's still bad, but it could be a whole lot worser (yes, worser you moron)!

Posted at 6:56 pm by jjennifer0705
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Sunday, May 09, 2004

Happy Mother's Day

Happy mother's day to all those who are mothers, who are soon to be mothers, and especially those you don't have mothers.
Today I did something incredibly difficult and was able to get through it with only a few tears. I took Hank to his mother's grave. It took all I could not to cry on the way there and I almost broke down in the cemetary. It was extremely hot and there were bugs every where so we didn't stay too long. When he was five his mom committed suicide. She and his dad had been having problems and she was manic depressive. I asked him if he remembered much about her and he said no. On the way back home I asked him how has he been able to handle it and he just simply said, "You just forget." I immediately came back with, "Well, how do you forget something like that?" Things were quiet for a few seconds and then he said, "I don't know, but I get so mad at myself because I don't remember anything about her or what happened and I don't get all that sad or cry about it." I told him he shouldn't feel guilty and he kissed my forehead and said thanks. I could tell he really appreciated it.

     As we were standing by her tombstone he hugged me and then looked at me and told me I was the first person to take him to the cemetary. I was in shock. I felt so bad for him, but yet I was so proud of him. For nearly thirteen years he's had to deal with what happened and take care of his little brother and sister. He's so strong- not just physically but emotionally and mentally as well.

     I guess since it's mother's day I'll complain about my dad. He's such a jerk. When I told him today I was leaving he began one of his tantrums asking me 'Why I couldn't spend time with my mother'.
     I had asked momma a few days ago if I could spend a little time with Hank today and she told me that it was fine, but to clear it over with my dad. I did and he said that it was okay. It was around two when I got ready and went to tell momma bye and when I did she asked me when I was going to be home. I told her probably between three thirty and four. Sarcastically she said, 'Just in time to eat?' Well, without knowing anything my dad piped up and said 'Why do you have to go some where?' and I explained to him that I spend 365 days a year with my mom... Hank can't. Missing an hour and a half wasn't going to hurt anything. Before I got angry I just turned around to tell mom bye again. I walked past my dad and went to kiss him and he just turned his head. I stormed out of the house forgetting the keys so I went back and asked him for them. He threw them at me and as I walked out the door he said, 'Have fun.' I lashed back, somewhat under my breath, 'Whatever'; only not that polite. In a way I wish he had heard me, but then again I'm glad he didn't.

Posted at 2:37 pm by jjennifer0705
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